How can I get over the negative things my family has done to me??? I have extremely low self esteem bc of it?

I rarely say this, but with the harsh family drama and how's it has leaked into your daily life...you need to to sit down with a therapist and let everything you have inside flow out in a professional setting. What you appear to have is boiling anger and it is tearing you up...the only way to really move forward is through this past, and it must be done professionally.